Life scares me. Love scares me. Of all, happiness frightens me the most.
Is happiness really good? Whoever said that?
I don’t know how to be content.
I can’t relax. And can’t let go either.
My stomach hurts, my heart speeds up like a bullet, and here I am, sipping cheap whisky, listening to music:
The blue metronome of my discontent.
While happiness frightens me, music pierces me the most. I purse my lips, and breathe in deeply, in a sole, unprotected tremble.
Carlos Gardel keeps playing his beautiful music, as if my world was not being demolished under my feet.
The alarm clock goes off.
I get up and forget who I am.
Anita Petry